When I start thinking about my work life, I almost feel like my reality is knocking at the door persistently willing me to let it in and get life in order. That would mean, leaving my baby and toddler behind, pack my purse and put on my work attire, ready to spend major portion of my day out side the house, with out them.
I know when I picture the mat leave ending predicament this way, there is nothing pretty about it. All it portrays is a gloomy prospect and a waiting to happen disaster. But a tiny voice in me tries to make it known itself by saying that work is a means to ensure a bright future for my family and what it does is bringing in the financial stability to thrive and sustain. Sure ,there are sacrifices involved like being separated from the kids, leaving the comfort zone of your home, wearing something other than your PJ’s and spending your whole day in it. But like some one had said before, “There is no gain with out pain” and my pain is “saying hello to my work life” for the gain of “securing my family’s future with the money I make”. Yeah..sure. One of the ways to accept the already written fate, right? Whatever!
Anyhoo, the bright side? I still have couple of months left to enjoy the life with my babies and walk around the house in my PJ’s spending the days. I will take that! Life is too short to fret about somethings that we cannot control and so what do we do? Just let it go and live in the present moment… (I wish it was as easy as that)
Sure, there is a check list involved in premiering the “Going Back to Work” movie. For starters, I would visit my wardrobe/closet and take a look around. I really don’t want to do this since most of my cloths do not fit me any more and the cloths that would fit me will probably reduce me to fits and rage concerning my current size. (Let’s just leave it at that)
I also need to practice my conversational skills in the adult level. Since majority of the time I have spent during the past one year is cooing and baby talking at home, I suspect some serious flaws in my speech skills and would need to fix it soon. (Hope I won’t need a tutor for this)
Concentration and Focus is old news to me after my kids were born and mostly my system is dominated by mommy brain and its consequences. This also includes forgetting things, keeping stuff in the wrong place, inability to speak coherently in crucial times etc..etc..etc…So obviously I will need to work on that as well and gear up! (only that I don’t know where to start) “Post-Kevin” at work witnessed some minor incidents but nothing major so I am just keeping my fingers crossed.
Is this “Post- Maternity Leave Getting Back on Track” always this hard? What are your thoughts on this? What were the preparations that you Moms had to follow through at this time? Most importantly, do I need to add anything more to my check list/ to-do list which is over looked in the first place due to the total fault of my mommy brain?